Online convergance |
Welcome Guest ( Log In | Register ) · 0 New Messages
Online convergance |
=LAW=HalOS |
Apr 24 2002, 02:15 AM
Post
#1
|
Group: Full Members Posts: 278 Joined: 19-January 02 From: London, UK Member No.: 15 |
"everyone is so blurry... and everyone is so fake"
Puddle of Mudd - Blurry.... An illegal mp3... (Pipe down James) As the song plays I think about our meeting... the link between CS players becomes a bond as we put names to faces... and yet these faces have different 'real' names... did it ever strike you that the people you repeatedly blow up/shoot/knife are actually real people? Lucky enough to meet the few that turned up... an expected anxiety swept through my body as I got off the train... I was on this journey alone... and to meet perfect strangers who I know a little by voice and not much more... it became all the more evident that I knew f*ck all about these people as it was Neils girlfriend who came to pick me up from the station... As I walked straight past her.. I knew by instinct by the pace of her walk that she was looking for someone... as I dial Paul's phone and she picked up... it made perfect sense... the seemingly hour long walk to the establishment where I would meet all the so called 'crew'... the anxiety a churning ball in my stomach.. but as I strolled through the evening streets... a comforting calmness overtook the anxiety... and the unknown almost felt common place.. As I worry about having no ID with me... we stroll into the pub... looking around I find myself feeling a little too short against the majority... as I'm leaded up to the people I've never met before... the first thing I feel is the astonishment at these people actually existing... do not forget, I know these people through my computer... i stroll up to the group... Paul is fecking tall... and Jason is equally so... I feel like even more of a dwarf... but Paul looks older than his photo... and Jason (Koolcat) is not a 17 year old bloke like I expected... Sam aka Squigs sits for the entire evening... just watching the people around her mold into a crowd... occasionally shouting a word or too in defence... James aka Susan? is in the other group... the divided people who seem not part of the online posse... and yet contain Emmy and Meat? (maybe....) and Neil... As Emmy moves more towards our group.., I look upon her as quite a beautiful creature.., tall and slender, pretty and witty... something inside me makes me look no further.... People seem to be leaving... Paul and Sam have to go home (damn driving/non-alcohol) and so Graham and Peter have to hitch the lift to the train station... I find myself amongst James, Emmy, Neil & Naun... going to Neils place... Air America is on... and as I and Neil polish off a bottle of wine.. I realise how pissed I am... -------------------- I refuse to have a battle of wits with an unarmed person!
[url]http://halos.dynu.com/law/[/url] =LAW= Redesign in progress - check it out :) [url]http://www.halos.org.uk/[/url] Come visit some time... |
LAW Lardy |
Apr 25 2002, 10:04 AM
Post
#2
|
Member Group: Full Members Posts: 306 Joined: 30-October 01 From: Brighton Member No.: 55 |
LOL - pesky kids... you only have more pulling power because its deemed wrong for a bloke of 31 to tap off with the 16year olds your finger banging
damn this thing called a conscience... never mind i blame the youth of today... 16 years old, 2 kids, one black, one white, one in the oven, low rent council house with option to buy after a couple of years at a 40% discount and the kids supplemented by the government for a further 16 years. Meanwhile people like myself work there fingers to the bone and cant afford to buy a garden shed. †I should have been born a woman then thered be guaranteed action 'cos blokes aren't fussy and a roof over your head because your good on your back... theres something wrong here... Maybe i'm just a moany old git, but i am good at it p.s. The bit about women in no way relates to any posters on the forum, however there is an "easy" option for you ladies if you dont mind throwing your self-respect out of the window and acquiring a label for yourself. †You'll probably think me sexist, but its just an observation i've made - I'm not saying all 16 yr old females are like that honest... -------------------- 70% Pissed of with everything, 25% Moody, 5% undecided (Cant remember what i was pissed off with - and thats about as hapy as I'll get)
|
Time is now: 24th January 2025 - 06:40 PM |
Content © ringerpatrol.net 2001-2007 -- Design by Designified